Happiness=Hard

You can never be happy when you are sad;but somehow you can be sad when you are happy.

She Looks So Sad in Photographs I Absolutely Love Her When She Laughs...

She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve
been through what she has.
She’s anorexic? You’d be too,
if everyone called you fat
everyday. She’s a whore?
She made one mistake that
cost her, her reputation.
She’s a showoff? Her parents
abused her, & she’s never
heard of praise. She’s loud?
She’s invisible at home, &
she wants to be heard. She’s
quiet? She’s afraid to speak,
because she’s scared to get
made fun of. She’s fat? She
binges, because she misses
her dead brother. She’s a
geek? She wants to get into
college, so she can support
her poverty ridden family.
She doesn’t wear
abrecrombie? Her parents
have been out of work for
months, clothes aren’t her
top priority if she can’t even
afford food. She’s ugly? Tell
me, what is the definition of
beauty? Who are you to
judge them? You know their
name, not their story.
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Fighting for Nothing

Innocence on Vimeo

Hopelessly Devoted:Don't take me for granted because I am devoted to you
Waiting: We have all the time in the world
Loner:I don't need someone to make me feel loved
Clingy:You are to good to let go
Conceited:You are worth looking beautiful for
Distant:inches and miles don't mean anything
Player:Don't judge me because i can not make up my mind
Emotional:I don't have to be strong all of the time
Geek:intelligence fills my brain love fills my heart
Hopeful Romantic:always hoping for a better tomorrow
Stereotype: Crumbles paper
"The Silence often of pure innocence persuades when speaking fails."-William Shakespeare
Innocence is the foundation of childhood.When we expand our horizons to another individual,our innocence is tested beyond measure.

THE TEENAGE MISERY LOVE GAME

She kissed him
He missed her
She wished she could take it all back
Because she felt like her life was going forever off track
She got out but it pained her
To the point where she thought something was refraining her
So she tried to get him again
He said he only wanted a friend
But she had a hidden suspicion
To find he wanted someone with his religion
She got over it fast
Even with their six month past
She was happy and free
Until he called with a plea
He wanted her love
She wanted to move on
But for some stupid reason she couldn’t say no
Like she was hit by cupids bow
But the power wore off at midnight
Leaving the jerk instead of the handsome knight
And now she is lost
Does she stay in undecided chaos or leave again and pay the cost?

The choice haunted her brain

But she had to leave him if she wanted to stay sane

He had a hidden dark side that she only knew

A hidden demon that made her fears creep threw

It was rare but rude

When she needed him the most he had the evil attitude

She would long for the comfort he would usually provide

But instead he gave the torture of an ungentle guy

And that was enough for her to leave him again

But she didn`t want to; something she would admit only to a close friend

Because in truth we all have our demons that affect others

 No one is perfect not even a loving mother

 We all make mistakes

 And she kept making it in her heartbreak

If anything one mistake would be fine

If she didn’t keep making it too many times

And in the end she was the loser of their love game

She had earned all the laughing shame

 For when she finally admitted she had a demon too

 Her own evil spirit that sometimes crept through  

He had the courage to say no

It was truly the hardest blow

For he had slayed the final dragon with the unlikely hero`s sword

But he didn’t take the heart for that was not his reward

Because they both still secretly loved each other till the end

Never admitting to the other one again

For deep down they knew

That they could never be together with all the torture they had been through

In their future one will hurt the other again from whichever one of them really moves on first

The lucky one who gets to add another player to all the hurt

The jealousy war will begin; but will end in the same chapter

And who knows maybe one day in another life or so they will be together even with all of their disasters

For that is our couple`s shining hope

But for now they are not just going to sit around and mope

Even if sometimes they both wish they could jump back to the beginning

When they were both still grinning

But it is such a shame

Because no one gets a redo in the teenage misery love game

The past can either build you up, or you can choose to let it break you down...

Just when you think that you are over the pain that someone caused you, you are reminded of it.  You move on, you begin to fall for another, yet the past finds ways of creeping into your present. The hardest part is not letting the pain from an old relationship bring its way into your new relationship.  Trust is a hard word for me to use when it comes to others.. but in my heart i know I wouldn’t  lead myself to a life that i couldn’t handle…. When you’ve been building a wall your whole life, how do you let it come down?  How do you trust those words that were once shattered? I don’t know if i will ever learn how to bring that wall down, i want to with you yes, but i don’t know if i’m what your looking for…. When you’ve never felt good enough your whole life, when do you begin to believe that you are? When do you stop blaming yourself for mistakes others have made? You make me want to be a better person, you make me want to believe in myself and you don’t even know it.  Maybe your the person that i was meant to find, or maybe your not.  Maybe your just another lesson i have yet to learn. I haven’t even met you and i’m already afraid of how not having you in my life would feel.  Maybe i’m just the girl with the hope that i could one day be good enough for you.  Maybe i’m just the girl wishing with her whole heart that it won’t get broken again.. The thought of losing you already breaks my heart, the thought of you hurting me breaks my heart…  I guess that is the chance one takes. If i don’t take chances i could possibly be making the biggest mistake of my life and that would leave me without you and that simply just isn’t an option.

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